Hello! You may have noticed it’s been longer than two weeks since my last dispatch. I unexpectedly got some time off between work projects, and I decided to, gasp, use it to *not work*. I felt guilty about it until I remembered that I love myself and I deserved a rest. It was worth it for many reasons, but one of them was driving up north and seeing these dudes. They’re good inspiration.
Anyway. I’ve always envied people who wake up excited about life. At best, I wake up really interested in drinking coffee, and that’s enough to get me through to when the caffeine kicks in.
But in this most recent down cycle, I’m finding I need something stronger. Though the general wisdom is that depressives struggle to get out of bed, that hasn’t been my experience. I have the physical energy, it’s more like I wake up every day with a blank slate. Not especially sad, not especially anxious, more like, “oh OK, another day.” I can get myself to a place where I feel more interested in life, but it’s almost like I need one of those little video recaps they do on shows you binge watch to remind you of the critical plot lines in play. It’s annoying and disconcerting, and also just WTF? Who forgets about what they care about in their life between night and morning?
For this reason I’m creeping up on developing a morning routine. I have little things I always do, like make my bed, but sometimes I exercise, and sometimes I journal, and sometimes I meditate, but I can’t say I always do one those things. Sometimes the best I can do is just sip coffee and hope to come to life.
Does any of this ring a bell? Do you have a morning routine? Tell me about it. I want to know.
On to the latest things that have inspired me.
My meditation instructor and, dare I say, friend, Jennifer Howd, moved away from LA with her family this week, and I am so sorry to lose them. I’ve been attending her Saturday morning group sits for the last year, and they have been nothing short of life-changing. I’m planning to begin hosting some of my own, and will keep you posted on that front. In the meantime, however, I highly recommend her book, Sit, Walk, Don’t Talk: How I Survived a Silent Meditation Retreat. It’s an honest and funny tale of a journey I hope to take myself some day.
Does a comic ever speak to you? I love the work of False Knees. Check him out on Instagram.
Fuck FOMO. I’m all about JOMO.
“Who isn’t marked by their own failure/who isn’t dragged behind their minds.”
Love this song by Here We Go Magic.
you deserve what you needJuly 16, 2018
Have a great weekend. 😘